icebox
i was reading this something awful article, and the picture looked really familiar. seeing the title, i thought maybe it was somewhere in sydney. tonight i was walking from work to starbucks for a coffee fix and i realised that i was walking past the exact same place that picture was taken from. it�s right down the street from my work. i�ve never even noticed the crazy scientologists before.
i don�t like scientology. my uncle got caught up in it and i totally don�t respect it. same as the mormon faith. i have some friends who are mormon and they�re great people, so don�t get me wrong i�m not dissing them. it�s just i think that the thing they believe in, just the same as scientology, is based on crap.
but thinking this way gets me into a philosophical debate with myself. i�m really quick to dismiss these religions as a sham. but, even though i don�t believe myself, i give some weight to mainstream religions. i don�t know why this is. maybe it�s just cause they are centuries old. the thing is, how do we know that they aren�t crap and based on lies like mormonism. because a lie is 2000 years old does not make it any more true.
randomly, randomly this cool chick i work with, shazza, offered to drive me home this evening. it was cool, we had long chats about boys. i was telling her about that boy from canberra who listens to nada surf. i was telling her about his seeming emotional detachment. she said �but if he came to you now and said �hey lets hook up� would you?� i thought, and finally answered �yeah.� she said �well then you should. life�s short and you�re young. go for it. message him.�
while i was talking about him, i was using his real name. a bit after i got in, she sent me a msg saying �hey, i�m home. did you talk to canberra boy?� it was a sign dammit. so i�ve messaged him, and taken him off invisible on the eyeseekyou, and we�re plotting a trip to canberra. but i�ll have to wait and see if he replies first. and if he does whether it�s about beavis and butthead or not.
i know it might be stupid to get thinking about him again. but he�s so perfect, and not just because of the nada surf thing. and i want him. and i want to be happy. and having him would make me happy.
i hope.
01/04/2004 01:44