i know i'm just an amateur, but i've gotta try
today when i was talking to hot work boy he commented on how i'm always super happy. and yeah, i guess i am. well, you guys probably see my darkest moments, but outwardly and especially at work i'm always in a good mood and friendly to everyone. when it comes down to it, it takes more effort to be down and mean spirited.
besides that, i've learnt a great lesson from mr matthew caws - "always love. hate will get you every time. always love. even when you wanna fight." it's so much easier, and so much more rewarding to love than hate. and he's taught me that everything works out in the end "and i can see it all and i'm ok." it might sound simple, or naive or lame to base your life's core beliefs on some songs, but i think i'm doing alright.
i'm on the train at the moment, and i'll turn these words into typed out text later on at home if i get some time. at central, the sky looking out towards the eastern suburbs was grey/blue. i love this pre-storm feel/ the kind you normally get in february when it's hot and humid and awful and then you get those first drops of rain as you watch the lightning start.
one of my co-workers, one of the ones i started with commented today that i've lost weight. i probably havent, but oh well, it made me happy. and now i think, of course i'm happy. my life is filled with beautiful music. there's lots of awesome people around me. there's a wonderful boy in melbourne who makes me smile. and hot work boy, i'm happy because today when you were stretching i could see your stomach and for some reason it was fucking delicious.
15/11/2006 21:10